carve your name into my arm

meta_molko @ 2002-12-05T18:24:00

2002-12-05T18:30:25Z

Yesturday and today were very slow. Yesturday I had a grapics exam in the morning, which I didn't managae to complete and in the afternoon I had the dreaded History exam which went okish i reckon. I was soooo scared before hand though, it just seems so hard when u have to remember 10001 dates, names and events!! Today was slightly better first off we had Science which I have to say I did quite enjoy although I probably got all the questions wrong any way. In the afternoon we had Re on Buddhism and Christianity which made me think of Christian Slater in the exam yummy!! I love him hehe I thought the exam was again ok and I answered every question but one. Bur and me went home for lunch today coz it was too cold outside lol, Bur is just a pussy thats all. Well tomorrow I have Maths calculator arh! and English lit...maybe a little tricky. Until then Bye x

It's been a while.... (good old moan)

2002-12-03T18:35:42Z

Well I've just chilling out after a very very long hard days work. I had two exams today!! English and Maths. I could have swarn my hand fell off having done all that writing, and then to make matters worse I had to complete a Maths exam paper also taking a full 2 hours! The paper was hard and tiring, I'm still exhausted now. All these exams are stressing me out, they are emotionally nackering! Well I know I can oush muself harder if I try yet it's just the trying that I have to develop in. I won't even begin to start jabbering on about friendships, I'll be here all nite long! At the moment life a little confusing and dull. Everything a mess... I don't even look forward to week ends now, they are just as unexciting and routine as week days, they used to be the only things that kept me going through the week.
Sometimes I think about how things are so different from what I had expected life to be like when I was in year 7 about 5 years ago. Then it was all about friendships and hanging out. Now that kind of stuff doesn't bother any one, its just 'gigs' and hey wanna go to the cinema....? And your lucky if someone even suggests such an mind blowingly cool suggestion like that. I can see people changing and maybe for the better I haven't worked that one out yet. Although one things for sure...people are growing up and looking towards the furture, I haven't got a glue. From the way I'm behaving I'll be lucky if I even end up in college or sixth form.
Is it just me who feels this way? I'm just so unsure and worried all of a sudden and its not like me to feel this way. I'm just to put it bluntly bored of my life.... the smae old routine nothing to look forward to stress and work work work.
Love Donna x x

Its been a while folks

2002-11-06T23:06:51Z

Ok how long as it been?!! Well so much as happen but as I'm really tired and can't be bothered I'll write about it someother time...however all i wanna say is I want a new brown jacket. Nite x x

Donnas Life Update

2002-09-30T15:35:27Z

Hey ppl who are sad enough to read this lol. I had a good weekend, well actually I didn't at all lol. Friday I went to the cinema as I was given some money from my nan. I went with Devon, Alex, Sam, Gareth and Josh. Things were ok I guess Sam was really nice to me, Devon was very distant lol. Came bk to chi and met Sam at about 11.20 we went round town as she was a little drunk it was most amusing. Them we went home...I was a bit late so got shouted at ah well. Went to bed at about 1.00am. The next morning I made Sam and me breakfast and then Sam went home. Mum, Cat Matt and me went
to Brighton to go shopping for the day. I txted Devon asking him if he actually fancied me he peplied jo what a waste of time that was (sigh).We bought various things, mostly for Cat has its her birthday on Thursday. My feet were KILLING ME!! so I wore Cats drendy nike trainers for the rest of the day. On the way home we went to a resturant/pub for dinner. The food was nice and mum couldn't stop burping it was soooooo funny lol. At about 8.15pm on the when we got home from Brighton, I met Bur at the train station. She'd been to the antiwar march hee hee. We walked and talked on the way back to her house. I stayed at hers till about 10.00pm and went home. As usuall I was walked to the crown and we clowned around for a while and talked. On Sunday I spent the morning half dead since Matt woke me up at the crack of dawn, coz Cat went to work. Mum and me went to my nans for dinner and then went to the fun ahem car boot sale lol. We wondered around, I smiked a bit lol. Then we went into the town and had a cup of tea in army and navy fun fun. We got a lift back home with Cat and Matt after she'd finished work. In the eveing I didn't meet Bur as planned and watched 'real lfe vampires'. It was reallly interesting...they actually killed ppl and drank their blood...like for real. Stupid A holes. Today I didn't go to school as I feel really really sick. boo hoo. Oh I feel like shit at the moment. For some reason I feel like things are getting on top of me again. First Karl now Devon I mean whats wrong with me?!...I want a b/f and not just a silly teenage relationship god I hate boyz! I am sooo stressed and I can't stop being sick! Oh i feel like shit sorry. this entry was crap anyways lol sorry for boring u x

meta_molko @ 2002-09-22T15:19:00

2002-09-22T14:27:16Z

Well today I'm very bored lol. I could have gone to Brighton with Nicola but I'm not aloud. Yesturday the we all went to portsmouth to get piercings. Karly, Carly, Loren, Bur, Lizzy Nicki and me. Karly had her madonna done, Nicki her nose and Carly her ears streched. I really enjoyed it, it was good all hanging out again. I had my tongue pierced a strange experience. At first I hated it and wanted to take it out. It was sooooo painful when the treatment wore off. I can't eat solid foods for a while....I miss them like hell lol. At the moment I'm drinking slim fast and soup..yummy! But its grown on me now and I quite like it. This morning my mum took me to ford market and bought me a new tongue stud for it, its multicoloured, i like it. School tomorrow yeah. I have to go back to pompey on Thursday to get my bar changed. Nicki and Bur are coming so I think I'll be ok lol. But for now its Bye from me x

meta_molko @ 2002-09-19T17:31:00

2002-09-19T16:34:21Z

afternoon, I had a crappy day at school today, it was real boring. Well at least tomorrow is Friday yay! Nickky was at school to day thanks god :) and I think Karly and I had a good chat, I'm going round hers in min. I'm really lookin forward to this saturday...God I'm bored. I'm soooooo sick of school, it just bores the hell out of me, I say I want to go to sixth form but I don't think I'll beable to cope, I'm already pulling my hair out arh!!!!! and we have double pe tomorrow! boo hoo :(

hey hey hey

2002-09-17T17:21:08Z

Evening all! The wk end was sooo cool we went to london and hung out with peeps. I managed to have a talk with Ollie, it helped alot! And Karl finished with me on the friday nite but hey...hem. Well today I went to school, it was very slow and very very dull! I had RS which I hadn't learnt the creed for then Maths which I hadn't done the h/w for either! So much for working harder this year eh! lol. This lunch me and Lizzy had a good chat again, we sat in the huts. Boring as fuck...I think I upset Karly today. Karly if your reading this I'm sorry, but don't think I ment to upset u, u seemed annoyed even before I spoke to u. I hope the photos go well. I can't wait till Saturday for me tongue piercing. I'm a bit scared but I think it'll look cool. Well I've gotta go now cya x seb if your reading this I've wrote u a letter for tomorrow

meta_molko @ 2002-09-12T17:50:00

2002-09-12T16:58:51Z

Well I've just come off msn and guess what it was boring again lol! This week has been a blur, I feel quite dazed alot of the time. The work load is gonna be overwhelming! I keep thinking of Karl and how much Karly has freaked me out! lol. I didn't think I really liked him that much till I thought of not being with him and didn't like the particular thought. I have quite a bit of h/w to complete for next week, I promised myself I'd do it before I went to london (this weekend, after school on friday) but I won't as Karlys coming round tonite. I'm really looking forward to it, just chillin and watching videos. Nic goes to see murder dolls tomorrow....coolness. I hope to get my tongue pierced next weekend should be cool, I think it will really suit me. I hope I get my text soon coz i really wan tone lol!! anyways till tomorrow Bye Bye x x

I'm back

2002-09-09T18:07:04Z

Well I'm back from me hoilday it was good i guess. I won a disco dancing competition lol!! So we get a free hoilday in return I hope Bur can come... Well I'm going out with Karl now he lives in Southampton I met him at Haven...great pulling place lol! 2 weeks is a very very long time!! It was birthday on the 7th 2 days ago. That was a bit of a destasture, we went to smith and western but only Bur turned up I was sooo hurt i cried but we won't go into that. I'm glade I took me journal on hoilday otherwise the things I wrote mite have been said oh dear lol. So i'm weet 16 now and have a pretty fit guy.....finally lol. I went to see him on Sunday I am again this sunday..a little excitied and curious at the same time. U know what I'm thinking about guyz. First day back at school today it was ok got soaked on the way into town big mistake thinking we'd be ok rite Bur lol. Anyways this a bloody long entry to i must go now lol. speak to u tomorrow x

Bye Bye x

2002-08-23T20:07:16Z

rite so its Friday nite and I'm going on hoiliday for 2 weeks. I'm going to Haven in cornwall yay for me...it'll probably be hell. Ah well I can come home to all my bezzie mates at the end of it and go out for a meal :) that should be great fun. It'll be my birthday in exactly 2 weeks time too, presents yay. Also I can get my madonna piercing yayness. I bought the new sugababez single round round the other day its really good, yes i know your laughing Bur lol. I think Karly, Nic and Seb will like it though...maybe lol. Well i hope to go back to london soon to see everyone and Chris!!! wow i thin ki actually love this guy lol kind of..ok so no lol. I really miss them guyz but not as much as I'm gonna miss my peeps when i go on hoiliday in 9 hours. Ah well update u soon x x ps i thought the dorky icon was funny hee hee

I'm back!

2002-08-21T10:04:29Z

Well yesterday evening I got back from London. The train journey was awfully squashy and I didn't have a seat coz someone took it lol. Erm London was really really great. We met up with Sam, D, Rob, Chris (yummy), Tony, Matt, Jo Nickky etc. We even saw Ollie lucky us lol! We hung around in Camden and then went back to Sams house, I got very stoned lol and then fell asleep looking at Chris. In the morning we went back up to Virgin where certain bands were playing for free. Bur got Daves autograph for me....the lead singer from INME! yayness. After hanging out there for while we headed back and caught the train from Victoria. There were the usual tearful goodbyes NOT lol. I really enjoyed London and we all want to go back up there in about 4 weeks time...can't wait. The guys up there are like bezzie mates to me and i hate it when its time for me to go home. Anyways I'm back now. Homework day today lol great stuff!
Thats it then catch u later x x x while we headed back and caught the train from Victoria. There were the usual tearfull goodbyes NOT lol. I really enjoyed London and we all want to go back up there in about 4 weeks time...can't wait. The guys up there are like bezzie mates to me and i hate it when its time for me to go home. Anyways I'm back now. Homework day today lol great stuff!
Thats it then catch u later x x x

meta_molko @ 2002-08-18T18:52:00

2002-08-18T17:54:38Z

just erm chillin lol

Fun Fun Fun!

2002-08-18T16:02:49Z

well this is my first entry :D I bet every one is very excitied lol. Well today I did nothing...as usual lol (crap entry lol). I went into town with Seb and Bur, hung around. Seb went home....Bur styaed until we both went home. I'm gonna hang about at home tonite and have loads of fun with the tv and watch eastenders god I sound like Bur lol well thats about it basically I'm gay lol.
Erm mkay then cya x x

meta_molko @ 2002-08-17T10:10:00

2002-08-17T09:12:20Z

woo,
donnas journal = open :)